Since my nervous breakdown and coming home from university everything has been set to reset, I have to work through the same anxieties, worrying and bad habits I had before (that took me all of high school and college-5+3 years) to work on and improve.
It is so frustrating having to work on these all over again but what I am finding worse is that since I had a nervous breakdown I have lost the sense of who I am, It had took me so long to build up the confidence in myself even if it was a tiny bit before I went to university and understand a little bit about who I am but now I feel as if my slate has been wiped clean.
WHO AM I? WHAT ARE MY STRENGTHS? FLAWS=TO MANY TO COUNT(ONLY THING I KNOW), WHAT IS ATTRACTIVE ABOUT ME? AM I PRETTY? WHAT CLOTHES SUIT ME? AM I FAT? AM I CLEVER? WHATS MY PERSONALITY?
I feel really lost in feeling this and lost as person, I am going to all my support groups and etc, and I do have a little hope that I am going to get better but I haven’t a clue about how I am going to find out about myself again and this issue I feel so alone in, my partner doesn’t understand, but I don’t feel confident about who I am, I feel ugly to him and I don’t understand why he is with me, what he likes about me and I don’t want it to affect our relationship but I think it will.
How can I improve this>?