Before my fiancee moved in my bedroom was a place I used to go to relax, it was a room that I could get peace, process my thoughts through meditation, organise what I had to do the next day but I have not been able to do this for a long time and after my recent relapse I need to do this the most and it angers me so much that I can’t.
My room is now the place of a big tv which occupies the entire room and a playstation that is constantly on, it is now a place of activity, flashing images and loud noise.
I can not find anywhere in my room or house to meditate or relax in utter peace and quiet and it is making me feel so ill.
I feel constantly tense, agitated, my chest is constantly tight, heart constantly beating much faster than it should, my head is constantly tense and I have constant headaches that feels like somebody squeezing my head, I can’t sleep properly, I feel sick everytime I eat.
I want to get better so much but I won’t be able to if I can’t simply relax!
Anyone have any suggestions?!? I really need some help here!